paige'es

Two in a half years ago when colin and i started talking, i never thought we’d end up being what we are now. I never thought he’d end up meaning as much as he does to me now. Sometimes i get a little worried about me depending on him so much. He makes the happiest girl in the whole entire world. we aren’t perfect and we do fight but nothing is ever gonna ruin us. i’ve had people tell me i’m stupid to say i love colin, but when you’ve been through all the shit i have with one person and you finally get to be with them, i’m pretty sure its love. it’s so weird how much he effects what mood i’m in. sometimes when we fight i take him for granted, but if i ever lost him i’m pretty sure i’d lose my mind. colin is the only person i completely act myself around. sometimes we talk about spending the rest of our lives together and honestly i wouldn’t mind that at all. <3 happy 4 months, i love you babby. <3 

i feeel like i’m going to go insane from being sick. The fact that this whole being sick thing is a long term thing and i’m gonna have to work at it worries me a lot. I get so worked up about it that i just end up feeling worse. When i eat my stomach hurts and when i don’t eat it still hurts. I can’t sleep at night because it hurts. & now i have these weird ass bumps on my head from being so stressed out. I have so much work in all my classes & i can’t even sit and actually concentrate in them because i’m so worried about my stomach and feeling dizzy. I can’t put how sick i can get behind me to concentrate on doing what i’m suppose too. I’m tired all the time. & i just wanna wake up and have this go away all by itself. I’m sick of it. I feel like nothing else could possibly be worse than it already is. & the sad thing is, we can’t even fucking figure out whats wrong with me.